The waiting game...

This is the third time the doctor has told us to wait. Wait. How I hate that word. Had she never mentioned that we could have the results early, we would have been fine waiting until Thursday; but unfortunately she expected to have the results a week early, and they never arrived. Okay, so I was skeptical, but never did I imagine that we would wait a whole week!

Friday we leave for Ushuaia and will return on Tuesday. A trip of a lifetime, but being made under trying circumstances, we wonder what kind of weekend it will be – relaxing or regretful? Because based on what the results of the biopsy tell us, Bryon could be expected to start treatment as soon as possible, and I don’t want to spend the entire 5 days wishing that he could start immediately.

Any scenario that we generate has its own timetable and requirements. Many phone calls, trying to change our non-changeable tickets, trying to arrange a doctor to treat Bryon in the US, finding out how the insurance company will consider our situation, whether it would be better or required to stay here and finish this round of chemo and then return to the States in June. So many options, the head reels with trying to keep track of every little detail, hoping it hasn’t forgotten which questions to ask for which plan. But to map it all out would be exhausting, especially as there might be only one option come Thursday.

And what happens if Thursday comes and the evaluation of his bone marrow isn’t finished? Most likely we will have to wait until the following week, as we are in mañana-landia. The longer the biopsy results are postphoned, the least likely it is that Bryon can have treatment here in Argentina, and the more likely that we return to the US prematurely, bypassing Costa Rica altogether.

Actually, any way you look at the situation, whatever plan you choose, Costa Rica is out of the picture. The only way we could still fly through Tico-land is if Bryon’s cell counts maintain themselves or actually improve between now and the end of April, which is highly unlikely, given the fact that we know that he still has leukemia in his system.

So the major question is: what is God wanting us to learn during this time? What is His purpose in all of this?